Below, I've pinned a few of my favorite pieces, accompanied by their title and creation date. You can access the rest by clicking on the drop down under the writing tab. Enjoy!
Life — 10/21/24
Life is such a fickle construct
It’s fragile and ephemeral
I watch it teeter in the wind—a delicate rose
I want to care for it
I want to help it grow
I want to sprinkle potions upon its sharp, green body and scented, thin petals to make it last forever
I want to turn it immortal
I know though, that if I do, I will appreciate it no longer—it will no longer be my treasure
Thus, life is fickle,
and I must observe it shrivel
A War Between the Intrinsic and the Extrinsic — 3/22/2025
Will I waste my life away,
crumpling myself up into tight boxes
with sharp edges like cliffs that make hearts drop?
Blotting out my unconventionality for a few million claps and cheers—for no sniffs and sobs,
Erasing my ephemeral consciousness for the everlasting, ever-enticing spider-web
My agency in the matter is already lost
I find myself gravitating towards former, forbidden—formerly forbidden—thoughts
To perform excellently, consistently, is—is not—the goal
What matters—does it?—is feeling whole
Close yet Distant — 2/06/2025
Close yet distant
Arms, hands, legs brush against each other, faint yet pronounced
In my mind, sparks fly
It’s polluted by my old habit of using romantic fantasy to fill a void—
It won’t die no matter how hard I try
Close yet distant
Once upon a time, I truly felt the tug of a red string tying me to him
I think, now, it’s taut, on the verge of shattering into a million shards stabbing my chest painfully
I’m distraught
Should I try to mend, make amends, become, at least, friends—
What are we? Let’s set boundaries. I liked, I like, I’m overthinking—stop
Close yet distant
The mindsets, mental algorithms, habits I once had are starting to drift away, fall apart
I fear I’ve misused my time—choosing to fit inside the societal conventions instead of smashing boxes
I want to restart
I wish I could be as smart as the few
Despite having awareness of the various nuances leading to their acumen, I spiral further and further
Close yet distant
What is Beauty? — 02/01/24
Beauty is a face made of plastic—
a button nose, doe eyes.
A face suffocated with makeup deemed “natural” by the internet of lies.
Beauty is a body with certain curves
and certain lines.
Beauty is a standard that likes to discriminate and criticize.
Beauty does not like when it sees people who do not check all its boxes,
so it calls upon loneliness, bullying, and disgust to stalk them—
to prey upon them like sly foxes.
Never letting them know: it was beauty which was the cause
of all their misfortune.
And, if the fox prey fight back,
then beauty checkmates.
It sends ugly to decimate.
It blows away self-esteem.
It shoots confidence and pride,
and it kills dreams.
Why should beauty have the power to make some people loved more than others
and dispose of the rest in the gutters?
I call on intelligence, courage, honesty, and kindness to overtake this corrupt dictator,
for society to brand beauty a liar and a traitor.
Edit to line 21 on 4/24/25. Original: and beauty to be branded a liar and a traitor/and to beauty i say see you NEVER alligator
It's ok, I know now — 01/23/24
You gave me the strength to move forward when I had none
You pushed me gently, so I could run
You told me to stand back up when all I wanted to do was fall
Why did you give me so much only to leave me with no one to call?
Eventually, I had to find someone new,
but even they haven’t looked out for me the same way as you used to
Maybe, I was like a little sister to you,
or, maybe, another type of feeling inside you bloomed
I wonder why you took such good care of me
but then left me behind
My new friend makes me happy, and we’re almost always by each others' side
They are there for me once in awhile
and often make me smile
Walks after school together are lots of fun
and so are our frequent moments in the grass, under the sun
A friend I cherish and will definitely keep,
but sometimes they aren’t there for me when inside I feel like all I want to do is weep
I realize that, really, I must learn to thrive on my own,
and gain strength from myself alone
But, sometimes, in the back of my head, I still hear you say
words that helped me get through my day
Why did you stop being my friend? Sometimes I still wonder why
It makes me sad sometimes but not enough to cry
When memories pop into my head of you, sometimes my heart drops
But, I know soon the sometimes and the subtle ache will stop
because I no longer need you to lift me up,
because I know that me, myself, and I is enough
Side note: The subtle ache did, in fact, stop roughly six months ago. I wanted to celebrate this poem—despite its relative oldness in relation to my other featured poems—because of its rhythmic elegance and illustration of the early buds of my maturity in thinking and writing!
Deadly Smoke? — 12/24/23
Every day, I inhale that horrible smoky gray in several breaths,
and every day I get closer and closer to death
The innocent and unassuming should not be punished for the actions of those who love their cigarette,
forced to inhale a gaseous threat
I call for action against this device, this addiction, this weapon of destruction
I call for designated rooms and places for construction,
for where these people can take their abhorred smoke,
so breathing is once again safe for us other folk
I do not want to bike to school every day in fear
of some smoker releasing death so near
Every day, I cough; I hold my breath; I glare
However, I can not do anything but stare
at that person walking by who has no respect for other peoples lives
and just keeps blowing out that wicked gray that causes innocents to die
As a singer, I want to preserve my voice—
not be forced to inhale poison without a choice
So, once again I ask of you, no, I demand of you:
stop smoking, or at least go do it alone in your room
Edit to line 3 on 4/24/25. Original: We children (the youth?) should not be punished for the actions of those who love their cigarette,
Edit to line 18 on 4/24/25. Original: to stop smoking, or at least go do it alone in your room
I Press Play — 10/31/24
These people lead glitzy and glamorous lives
While I find myself stuck
Wedged between wealth and just plain middle class
Grossly intelligent and just plain average
Simplicity, however, becomes the scat that they don’t want to step on
I become the crusty, filthy, old pizza
No one wants to take a bite out of that one
I struggle to grasp the edges of crumbling stairs
There’s nothing above or below me
I’m stuck
Hanging in empty space
Instead of searching within and
unlocking the piece of me that I need to
fly up to the castle on the cloud that I want to reach
A level of unparalleled excellency in polymathy
I look outwards
to him
As if he is Him
As if he is a God
It’s my subconscious trying to escape
Into a person who in many ways is great
He has what I want to be
Regardless of if he does or does not like me
I am distracted
I need to move on
I need to fold in but fold out my feathers
I press play
I want to go go go
I want to leap into tomorrow
Instead of moving onto the next song
I’m stuck
In rewind on a song filled with pining, frustration, shame, embarrassment, and sorrow
Information floats around
Some just within reach
Others far above me
I anxiously try to collect them in my hands
Clinging onto them like my last hopes
Only to see them disintegrate the next day
Hope is lost
Hope isn’t real
I don’t have enough time
I’m in a cage
Black bars surround me as I grip the stair
Towering, thick, metallic, and claustrophobic
They push out swirling clusters of data
Boxing me off from opportunity
They begin to suck out my energy
Like manipulative leeches
They claim to bring me benefit
A standardized education
A clear path to career
These are constraints
I want out
I want to make my own way
But something else latches me into place
I’m stuck
A hand shakes my shoulder
It screams
MONEY
It screams
MONEY
It
I press play